Christmas Eve 2010

What a year it has been! My house is full. My mom, son and brother are all living with me now. We each have our own lives but we make sure to touch place with each other everyday. We lean on each other for support and love. It was hard letting my brother move in here. We have a tumultuous past. Learning to let go of that has not been easy and something I work on everyday. I will say I am proud of how he has grown since being in KC. He got clean from drugs and turned his life around. That is not an easy feat for sure. We once followed the same path of destruction with drugs and one addict to another he is doing great. My son is becoming a man right before my eyes. At the age of 22 he works hard and tries to make good decision and learn from his mistakes. He now has a girlfriend that seems to be getting serious with. She is sweet. He spends his spare time with a small group of friends doing the things he enjoys. He doesn't drink or do drugs and he stays out of trouble. Well, except for that traffic ticket deal that he didn't take care of lol. He is everything good about me. Im very proud to have him as my son. My mom has had a rough year. Starting off the year with lung cancer and having part of lung removed only to find out a few months later it is now in her other lung. she has decided not to have treatment or more surgeries and I respect that. Even thought that is not easy. She is grabbing life by the balls and enjoying every minute of it. She is working on her bucket list and I am helping her as much as I can with that. We went to the bahamas and she liked it so much she went back again. We did the zip line with a group of some of our family. Im enjoying every minute with my mom and telling her everyday how much I love and enjoy her. Speaking of family my favorite cousin and her son moved away to Austin. I miss them lots. I helped raise her son and not having them here for the holidays is not the same. Hopefully I will see them soon. My life has been a roller coaster. Taking the semester off because of health issues and regrouping to start back to school in Jan. I dont want to give up my dream of being a college graduate. I am so close it would be a shame to quit now. My film focus was good the first part of the years. I worked often on different projects and had the pleasure of working and learning from some amazing people. I have been trying to get my screenplay finished but struggle with the writing. how I received A's in screenwriting class is beyond me cause I am not all that great at it. But Im not giving up. It's a good story and can be a good film and I have great people lined up to work with. Hopefully I will get more offers to work on other projects once people know that Im doing better Im sure something will come up. My so called dating life has really been a bomb. But I learn from those I let into my life even the ones that are crazy. I keep my heart open! Thats the ticket to a good life. Keeping your heart open to family, friends and lovers. Learning from each other them. Growing from them. I am blessed in my life and that I am thankful for. Open your heart to those around you. You wont regret it even if it doesn't work out with some. Find the good things about those experiences and you will be thankful too.

Sunny California

I'm in california right now enjoying the weather and great friends. Went to san fran yesterday and lost my phone but some guy found it and was nice enough to meet us today to get it back yay. can't live without my phone. We have big plans this week for a road trip yay. we are going to go ghost hunting. That should be fun. And we are going to go see some more of california along the way. Im excited.

BEEN AWHILE

So, it's been a long while since I took a moment to write something down. Lots has happened in the last few months that is for sure. I just wanted to stop for a moment and say Im back and Im gonna try to blog more about whats on my mind! :)