Life Happens

In my life I have made some bad choices and good choices just like anyone else. I am not perfect nor do I try to fool anyone including myself that I am. I am a recovering drug addict. I was once one of the worst drug users you can be. My drug of choice with meth and I was an IV user. After years of abusing drugs I CHOOSE and continue to chose not to be an active drug user any longer. I know my disease. I know the choices I make will bring consequences of a not so pleasant kind if I chose to do drugs. Why am I writing about this today? Well, addiction, although not my choice today, is once again enveloped my life. Let me say that drugs have played a huge part in the death of my father and brother in the past. A few months ago I lost a dear dear friend to an OD. Kurt and I used together and we had moments of being clean together. I was very blessed to have him in my life. There was a time that he kept me alive and I will never forget him! Today we are getting ready to drive to the St Louis area. My sister has been in the hospital for a couple of weeks now and the doctors are suggesting that we unplug her monday. As she lie in that hospital with a failed liver from years of alcohol and drug abuse at the age of 48 her daughter (32) struggles with her own demons with alcohol and drugs. Me and my sister were never close because of the person alcohol and drugs made her be. My niece and I have become close in the last two years. I have done everything in my power to help my niece not become her mother but I fear it could be too late. I love them but there is nothing else I can do for either of them any longer. So, if you experience even one time that alcohol or drugs have affected your life know that there are choices you can make. My sister and my niece CHOSE the path of distruction and death. I CHOSE daily to live my life without drugs. It might be too late for my sister but it is not too late for my niece. Now I can only hope that she will also chose to get clean and sober on the daily basis. Life IS worth it! Thank you Cody (my son) for loving me enough to stand up to me and show me I was making the wrong choices!