Ok Let me start by talking about the death of my sister for a minute. My sister was a major alcoholic and drug addict all her life and at the age of 48 her liver finally completely failed. She knew for years that if she continued on the path of distruction this would happen and it almost seems she stepped it up even more. My mom is doing pretty good with the death of my sister but has come to the realization that addiction is taking her family away. First my father, than my brother, and now my sister. Who's next she says? Probably my niece if she doesn't get it together and keep it there. My niece is doing better right now. She is pregnant and trying sorta to stay sober. I don't see her doing the things I have to do to keep me clean. going to meetings, staying away from people places and things that put me in a bad spot, a weak spot. but I am at the point all I say is it is your life. But if you have this baby and continue to use, I will step in know that! She is a strong woman. I have faith that if she really wants it she can do it. So, me and my mom are going to an ALNON meeting tonight. I think it might help my mom understand her own reactions to the choices most in my family make when it comes to drugs and alcohol. My mom even said that she is giving up weed. We will see about that. I don't condone her using weed but I understand it helps with her pain a great deal. I hope she does give it up completely. Good for her! She has grown so much mentally and emotionally since moving to KC. I love it.
My son got a decent job! YAY for him and for my pocketbook. He can finally afford to pay his own bills. I am so proud of him. As usual. We took him out for dinner to celebrate his new job. He wanted sushi. ew. the rest of us choose to eat cooked food. I have no idea where he got his tastebuds at lol.
School is crazy busy right now. I'm struggling a lil bit in my documentary class because I was given a partner that Im not so sure I want to be associated with the project he wants to do. He didn't fully explain to me about this guy and his website. All he told me was that it was an online mag about music. OK great Im down for that I said. I dont mind doing someone elses idea at all. Then I checked out the site. It is a Christain Mag about punk rock music and more God related stuff. Look I dont have any problem with other people and their choice of faith and what they want to believe. Just not my thing and Im not sure I want my name as anything directly associated with it. Im gonna have to do it, keep my mouth shut and smile but I don't like it at all and I dont want any credit except maybe edited by on it. I just don't want it to be consided made by me at all. Its great what they are doing. Very positive message on the site. Just not MY beliefs is all. I guess I need to learn to be professional about some films I might work on. I just think if you have a choice why associate yourself with something you dont believe. I wouldn't dare do a movie about a Repulican ... unless it was to show how against it I am lol. Principles you know. Where is my boundary with filmmaking? Just learning that.
Im starting a ten page screenplay now. This should be interesting. Keep your fingers crossed on this assignment.
Thats enough blabbing. Thanks for visting blog readers. Have a wonderful week!
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