New Beginnings

I'm at a point in my life where everything is changing. Most of the time I am in fear of it but I do have moments where I get excited to see what is next. I read this in my meditation today ..."Our fears are lessened and faith begins to grow as we learn the true meaning of surrender. We are no longer fighting fear, anger, guilt, self-pity, or depression."...Surrendering doesn't mean there isn't anything I am suppose to be doing. It means I have to do the action but leave the results up to my higher power! So, I sit here wondering what action can I do today to take my first steps in my new beginning. I have to find a new and cheaper place to live and I have to figure out how to get some things paid that I have feel behind on since my mom passed and my house income dropped in half. Today I will gather all the paperwork up that I need for those things. Tomorrow I have an appointment to figure some of this out. I also need to unpack from my trip and clean my house. When I look around I just get overwhelmed at all that needs to be done. But if I look at one thing at a time. I can deal with that. So, one thing at a time today I will get something done concerning the cleaning! That doesn't sound like a lot to do today, just one day, but for me right now that is plenty. And that is ok! I spent the last two days home doing nothing because I was stuck in fear. Even one thing accomplished today will be something. I did look up places I could volunteer yesterday. Places that sound like an interest that fits me. Not going to school I am going to have some free time on my hands. Everyone keeps telling me I should start taking pictures to make a little more money and I gave it some thought but still don't feel like Im there just yet. I don't mind doing it for my friends and family but Im not confident enough to start doing that for people I don't know yet. In time. I have been thinking of part-time jobs I could possibly do. I would love to be a tech at a treatment center. I think physically I could handle this. It's hard trying to figure out what job I can do today with my health. Again, I will come to that decision when it is time. If I am meant to work it will happen. One day at a time. One step at a time! New Beginnings are fresh starts. There is no handbook on what the right or wrong way is. My path will become clear as I walk it.