Follow the Light

You never know what life is going to bring your way. Lately I have been struggling on how to express myself. Now don't get me wrong here...when it comes to expressing myself when Im pissed off that is one area I do not struggle in. But when it comes to expressing things more positive its like speaking a foreign language!
Recently someone came into my life. Have you ever met someone and known almost instantly that this is going to be someone that will be in my life for years to come? I met someone like this. She has this light about her that attracts you like a moth to a flame. Not that her light is bad. It is something almost unexplainable. I struggle with being real with people most of the time. With the exception of my cousins who are like my sisters I can count on one hand how many friends I have like this. Friends that I can be completely 100% me with and feel no judgements from. They take the good and the bad and they love me unconditionally. I didn't use to believe that was possible. I thought except for a parent with their children unconditional love was impossible. I'm lucky enough to say that I am blessed with a few friends that know how to love unconditionally and I can return that right back to them.
Ok so back to this lady I met...When I spend time with her I have no hesitation about being real with her.  I'm able to share with her honestly and openly without thinking twice. An outsider might say I don't get it. Although, her and I have walked down some of the same paths what is this connection? She is almost as young as my son. She is a newly wed. She is in a different spot in her life. All I see is this woman that I can learn so much from and that can make me laugh when nothing else can. I get this calming feeling when I'm around her. Her spirituality is freaking amazing! Sometimes I watch her and think wow she got this deal so damn young and Im envious of that but in the same thought, Im thanking whatever it is that brought her into my life in a dark time.
She's wise beyond her years, full of life, full of joy, humbled, excited by life and grateful for what she has and who she is. Who wouldn't want a friend like that? I look forward everyday to what I'm going to learn from her. I am humbled and honored to spend even a few minutes with her.
Maybe this all sounds a bit corny I don't know. If it does alright this is a softer side in me. I can't tell you how many times a day I have felt such gratitude for her. I truly believe in my heart that this will be a friend I have for a lifetime not just a leader and teacher to me. I look forward to getting to know her better! Thank you for opening up your heart, giving me your time, sharing your story, and just being there to listen. You know who you are...'boo' ::::laughing:::