Where do you see God?

I have really been struggling with faith. Believing in a higher power that can give me peace. Believing in God has been a battle for me for many years. I grew up in a church. First a Christian Church and after that a Southern Baptist Church. Some of my closest friends are very true christians. I admire their faith in God and how they accept me 100% even if their beliefs might believe that I might go to hell for who I am today. They believe my judgement will come before their God. I do believe in something bigger than us all. For years now I have called myself agnostic. I catch myself praying to whatever might be hearing me and still question is there really a God like the Bible says. I believe that the bible is a spiritually written book by men. Thats about as far as I get on that one. I have read many books that our spiritual! That lead you to think about being a better person and to share the best parts of yourself to others that may need it. Where do I see God? I see it in PEOPLE! You can see something so bright sometimes in some people that is blinding. Im not talking about religion either. If you can believe in something, anything that makes you a better person and guides you in your life and brings you strength Im happy for you! As I would hope you would feel the same about me. I sometimes walk by and ignore other things that I should be seeing God in. I see God in animals and nature. It's strange how both my cat and my dog want to be right next to me when Im feeling down. They sense when I am feeling lost and alone and show more love than anything has ever to me. I see God in nature. The beauty of the flowers blooming and the smell of a spring shower. Most my family would tell you that Im a city girl but my mom did teach me to see the beauty in nature! I see God in children. Their innocence and thirst for knowledge amazes me every time I witness it. When I'm using my camera, that is when I see more than anything. Hiding behind a lens watching the world and when I capture a moment in time that maybe no one else notices feels like a moment I am not in power of but something greater than me. I may struggle with giving over my will to my higher power but I do notice it when I see it. So how can I question God and see that higher powers work at the same time? Will I ever have those answers? Im not sure. But I can say even when I royally screw up in my life that is when I seek even more than when Im not screwing up. It's a daily struggle but maybe one day it will become easier to believing in something without question. I don't know. It's a process that never ends and I think when it does that might not be a good thing. It is human nature to doubt what we can not see or feel. It is my choice daily to question and seek it. That's a step further than I was yesterday!